Your Karmic Secret: Tarot Pick a Card

Hello, my soul friends! Today I have a reading on a wound in your soul that’s forging a destiny for you in this life or the next. So let’s find out what that is so you can brighten up your future!

All you have to do is pick the pile that sticks out to you the most. Which illustration inspires your intuition? That’s your pile and that’s your tarot reading.

After you select your cards, scroll down to your pile or choose below.

Here I’m using the Mystical Manga Tarot deck (this is an affiliate link that supports me if you make a purchase). Remember that you have free will. That means you can manifest the positive and avoid the negative of any reading.

Now it’s time to find out what your karmic secret is and what that means for you.

Pile 1: Mushrooms

Broken Heart

With your first card being the Two of Cups, Reversed I see an emotional wound. This usually indicates a breakup or some kind of social disharmony. Most times it’s related to a romantic relationship, but any broken relationship or social wound applies here.

Free will is a difficult thing. It seems like the universe had a destiny for you that was more positive than what revealed itself in life. But other people, or your own decisions, can cause that future to be in peril.

Because of this, an important soul tie was severed or damaged.

There are a few things you can do, but this spread doesn’t indicate a particular solution itself. That means the type of relationships for those who chose this pile are varied. So what I want you to do is introspect and consider how this brokenness has affected you.

For some, this relationship is broken and can’t be replaced. Perhaps someone like a family member died or is out of your life for good. In that case, you need to accept that some relationships can never be repaired and move on. It’ll hurt less with time.

Others have relationships that should end but can be replaced, such as a romantic relationship. There are other fish in the sea, and some relationships can be replaced in a new chapter of your life. That doesn’t mean the past relationship didn’t happen, but that you can find happiness again.

But some of you have relationships that are broken and can be repaired. This usually requires forgiveness and hard work, but it’s something you should seriously consider because a soul tie that can be happily renewed is worth having.

Secret Pain

More than any other spread today, the effect this wound has on you is more subtle than you realize. The next card, The Moon, indicates a secret held even from you.

This is why it’s so important for you to introspect on the issue. Common ways to do this include pondering the issue while listening to music, meditation, journaling, talking with someone you trust, or a therapist.

Focus on how you felt before the relationship, during the relationship, and after. For example, someone may have always wanted to get married because they felt it would complete them. But in their marriage, they felt as if their partner didn’t do what they wanted them to do. So when the marriage ended, the person feels as if they lost a part of themselves… even though that other person never completed them to begin with.

We assign powerful feelings and associations to our relationships that can influence how we perceive ourselves. We’re social group animals, so this makes sense, but your individuality is important. You can find relationships rewarding, but even without a relationship, you still matter as an independent person.

But the broken relationship itself has shifted how you approach life and social situations. It’s either changed your personality or goals in ways that shouldn’t have been changed.

The best way to figure this out is to look at your feelings because relationships are very emotional things and the things that have changed will have powerful feelings surrounding them.

Your desires are shaped by your emotions and your emotions determine your actions. These feelings that are subtle and hidden from you now are changing your behavior. You just don’t realize it yet.

Don’t Fall to Doom Anxiety

Now I don’t see any reason in your spread why you can’t heal, but I do think some of you are going to find the healing process difficult. That’s normal when it comes to broken relationships so don’t feel like you’re a failure. You’re human. Pain hurts, especially emotional pain.

The last card in your spread, the Nine of Swords, is a card of anxiety. Your life is being held up by this pain and increasing your wariness of the future. This is a response from your soul that recognizes this wound has created a karmic effect on your soul.

You must work towards healing your pain because it can result in you having a more bitter, lonely future. Like the person in this card, you may find yourself alone in bed at night with no one to call after you had a nightmare. You need someone. And you don’t want this wound to cause you to push more and more people away because you’re afraid to get hurt again in the future.

Fortunately, so much in this spread is your feelings and not your destiny. This lonely future is one you have complete control over. It’s not the universe saying your karmic future is to be alone, but your current karma is that you need to work through the pain and heal so you can be receptive to love in the future.

This may mean being choosey with who you let into your life, but you should still let in people who are truly affectionate and full of love.

So do the introspective work by looking at your broken relationship or social situation and determining the origin of your feelings.

I’ll give a personal example to end this reading: I used to be shy. I’d always been introverted, but I suddenly hated talking to new people or in front of groups once I became a teenager. It wasn’t until I determined that I developed this unreasonable shyness in response to a stutter in high school that I was able to heal.

This stutter killed my self-confidence because I couldn’t speak more than a few sentences without being incomprehensible. Nobody wanted to talk to me for more than a minute. Though I am introverted, once I get started I can’t really stop and it’s devastating to be ignored or told to stop talking. Fortunately, this stutter was acquired because of crooked teeth, so I practiced saying difficult words in front of the mirror every day and pushed myself to practice and perform presentations in front of groups until I got better.

Now I don’t have this fear. I’m still introverted… but I’m not shy. That social wound isn’t there.

You can fix yours too whether it’s a relationship or a social wound.

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Pile 2: Lamp

Want More for Yourself

It seems like you’re thinking small. Your first card, Three of Wands, Reversed, indicates that you’re world is small. That’s not always a bad thing, but I think you may find your current situation more and more frustrating.

Wands cards are all about desires. So when you’re thinking small, you’re wanting less for yourself than you may deserve.

Now there are two ways to approach this. The first is that you can want more and the second is that you can want quality.

Interior decorating comes to mind. Some people are maximalists and want to decorate every inch of their home. This is a bit materialistic but makes them happy as they can collect things they find interesting and put them on display. These people also tend to be into fast fashion and trends.

Others are minimalists and have sparser homes, but focus on quality in what they do have. There’s also the happy bonus that their homes are easier to clean and promote focus. Fashion-wise, these people often choose more expensive clothes but have smaller wardrobes to match.

What you don’t want to do is decorate your home with things you hate or with things that break all the time just so you save money or have “nice things.” Intentionality and a match to your desires are important.

I want you to think about your goals for life. Are you selling yourself short? Why? If you don’t have a good reason, you need to make a life change.

Someone may choose to pursue a career in medicine instead of art. It’s not what they want though and it’s not good to push themselves to pursue a life they aren’t passionate about. You need passion.

A parent may choose to forgo their dream to go to college to take care of their kids… but they could go later when the child starts school or when they graduate. Don’t discount rescheduling some of your desires for your life if you have more urgent priorities.

Others do have to give things up. Perhaps you have a disability that makes something you wanted to do physically impossible (this happened to me!) or you’re no longer in a situation where what you wanted is still offered. Some careers just… stop existing sometimes.

Know that just because some desires can’t be had doesn’t mean other desires need to die too. Let yourself dream and want new things to replace those that can no longer be fulfilled – and then work for them.

Take Control of Your Time

But what about in the meantime? Your next card, Eight of Wands, suggests a lot is happening to you or is about to happen. This fast energy can be exhausting and cause you to live a life solely on edge.

That’s okay in the short-term to survive, but if you have a life based on reacting to things you don’t like for a life you’re not passionate about… you’re going to feel as if you have no control. That drives a person crazy.

Parenting is the perfect example of this in action. Children require a lot of work and there are always surprises. But if a parent doesn’t find a way to be more efficient or enjoy aspects of parenting, it’s going to be a drudge no matter how much they love their child. Efficiency makes the surprises less exhausting when they do occur because there is more room in life to begin with.

I’ve seen many parents increase their happiness in their situation by improving their homemaking and childcare skills so they have more time to pursue the things they want. Other parents ask for help, get a maid, or send the child to daycare for part of the day. It’s not a bad thing as long as you’re still spending quality time with your child.

What you need to do in your life is figure out how to be more efficient. Even saving just a few hours each week will drastically improve your happiness and help you feel in control. For most people, this usually revolves around routine tasks at work or in the home. Some people also stop trying to be a perfectionist.

With a bit of planning, consistency, and practice you can free up your time. Pick the things you know you can do well and then see if you can ask for help in other areas you struggle with.

Change for Yourself

So what direction are you currently moving in? If you don’t start embracing your desires, then the Knight of Cups, Reversed means you’re delivering yourself into a life without meaning.

Manifesting your desires is really important. It reflects the hopes of your soul and your purpose here in life. Some desires are small, and some are big, but they all make up the picture of why you’re here in the first place.

With the free time you make for yourself, start asserting and acting on your desires. This may be small at first especially if you need to reverse course and that takes planning.

Someone who went to med school but wants to be an artist can’t quit overnight and pursue art when they have half a million in student loan debt. What they should do is continue working, but work fewer and fewer hours and live frugally. Then they can slowly increase the hours they work on their art until they get to a point where it makes financial sense to switch.

You’re probably going to need to make gradual changes. Even if it’s just a few hours at first, do that, and then keep modifying your plan of action until you’re where you want to be.

Some of you may also want to make big changes right away, and that’s okay, but you’re going to want to set up your life to give you plenty of self-care too. You’re at risk for burnout right now and trying to do too many things at once is a recipe for disaster.

Go at a pace that’s comfortable for you. The goal is to make incremental, lasting changes.

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Pile 3: Books

Too Much

You’re taking on a lot right now and you’re close to the edge, but also to personal victory. Here your card is the Nine of Wands. Unlike most decks, this is a very triumphant image so I’m going to focus more on that idea.

Things are looking good for you right now. You have the right desires and you’re making suitable progress in the right direction. But I’m concerned about you being needlessly overwhelmed.

One of the things people don’t realize about desire is that it can consume you alive. You often hear people tell you to pursue your passion, and you should, but we’ve also seen countless examples where somebody did that at the expense of everything else.

You need a life with diverse interests and experiences. You also need some social connections. These should be meaningful connections who can be someone you can lean on when you’re stressed out.

We live in an age of the ego. What do you want? Go for it! If something’s not serving you, let it go! These platitudes are powerful and needed for those who haven’t stepped into their individual power, but they can go wrong.

Yes, being focused on yourself could lead you to hurt others, but that’s not always the case. The doctor who lives for their work saves people, they don’t kill them. But they may not have a personal life or they may think they’re a god and too good to bother with a romantic relationship.

Often this focus on the self can lead to intense self-judgement. Everything you do well is amazing, but even small mistakes are tragedies. This can result in rumination and toxic emotional isolationism even for extroverts.

When you only focus is yourself, then you light the match and set yourself on fire just to feel the burn.

Slow Things Down

There’s something I want you to practice for at least a few weeks called slow living. Your next card, Eight of Pentacles, reflects attention to detail and perfectionism. This isn’t bad exactly (I’m a Virgo and I basically live and die by this philosophy), but too much perfectionism usually leads to bad results.

I’ll use an example of calorie counting. Calorie counting can be one of the most effective ways to lose weight, but I don’t think it’s appropriate beyond a few weeks and occasional check-ins. That’s because it should teach you about your general habits so you can make a change.

I’ve noticed a lot of long-term calorie counters will eat a lot of pre-packed or stop exploring their palate to make the process easier. They also tend to despair if they go over by a hundred calories now and again. This can lead to disordered eating.

This same behavior can be extended to many things in life, but especially productivity. People become so focused on filling every moment of their time with work or freak out if their work isn’t ideal. They start attributing a perfectionist attitude to their worth as a human being.

Fortunately, there’s something called slow living that I think can help you learn how to moderate that tendency. The idea is to slow your life pace, be meaningful, and simplify. When it comes to work-life balance, this usually results in creating a clear boundary between work and your personal life and identifying priorities instead of trying to complete long lists of tasks.

What you’ll learn is how to live your life with an eye towards quality and you’ll stop trying to track and perfect everything. That’s going to change things for you at a karmic level because you’ll be more present in this life and allow yourself the wide pleasures that living gives you.

You’re not here solely to complete your life purpose. You’re also here to enjoy life.

Be Human

The final card in your spread is Strength, Reversed. Something is going increasingly wrong with your inner self. I think this is because you’re so focused on yourself that it’s difficult for you to externalize who you are.

Even introverts have hobbies they pour energy into or loved ones they enjoy spending time with. Maybe a cat.

But when you pent all of your energy up into yourself and that one purpose in your life you start repressing who you are.

I don’t necessarily think you need to do shadow work to resolve this, though that would be necessary if the problem continued so you could break karmic loops. That said, you do need to externalize what you’ve pent up about yourself.

A simple writing or thought exercise where you list all the things you enjoy doing but aren’t doing enough right now will help you to see where you’re making sacrifices.

Once you identify what you pushed out of your life, ask yourself how you can be less of a perfectionist to reclaim that part of yourself.

A parent may be so focused on their child that they don’t have time to watch their favorite shows. But could the child play on the floor in front of them or a play area in another room? Does the child even want to be the parent’s sole obsession (the answer is always no)?

That’s the kind of perfectionism you want to avoid. Lower your standards a little or make modifications. Perhaps you’re so focused on writing the first draft of your book that you don’t give yourself time for fun.

Maybe allowing yourself to write a good, but not great draft will take off the pressure. You can also revise it later or wait until your editor has a go at it before trying to perfect it.

That’s what I think you need. Not permission to fail, but permission to be human with a diverse set of needs and desires.

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